In a dream
I took
(my husband)
(to)
your apartment
looking for
proof
of
(a different) life
all the pictures
you had
were of your brother
But you’d saved
(a colony of chittering mice
for) me
_
In a dream
I took
(my husband)
(to)
your apartment
looking for
proof
of
(a different) life
all the pictures
you had
were of your brother
But you’d saved
(a colony of chittering mice
for) me
_
The body is meek
weak
The winter is deep
deeper than water
Liquid with drink
are eyes, are ayes,
are yes
_
Singing you who have lost it
tell me where you will find it
Inside his chest
the chirp of birds
inside his breath
needles of air
_
delight wheels like prayer
flinging night like doubt
on the parapet of dawn
our details are all spent
She knows that
the child and his friend
--another child--
read her words.
She hides small
messages
of hope
and love
Hardy as pebbles
as natural
shaking like leafy hands
on summer trees.
_
Water alive with the shuffle of crabs
my body rolled over by the waves
then cleaned to sea change
grotesque as rags,
familiar as reeds
coral laced up by eels
But brilliant showers
of triumph
of clarinet
Of abruptness--
steps missed in the dark.
Then the piano bares its teeth.
_
Trees suffer
this year’s work
to fall to the ground
leaves curl and cup
like beggar palms
Even their fruit
rotates rotten
but the seed inside
clear, the future.
But really
you know
even balloons,
birth-day
party streamers
sometimes die
with the slow
delicate agony
of flowers
that the child is adopted.
Snows translucent as sleep.
Her secret about wanting to die
swims in her breath
a sly brutal eel,
reclines in her
motherhood
while
all she does
in the daytime
is wait for night.
Her bewildered pleasure
in the alchemy of these children
in these precise children
such inaccurate precis of her
of the signs of competence
she generates, grows
_
Lights are
ecstatic explosions
lights
turn on with soft blinks
And rain so hard
it makes muddy
flesh wounds
in the earth
And us,
telling stories
impassionate as
furniture listings
on Craigslist.
Turning,
running
gone.
_
Sunrise is all dragon fire
skies, translucent breath,
and absent headed
searching for keys
to rooms held open.
The fresh heft of friends
in snow, after holiday.
And like all stories,
made of truth
mischief and boredom.
What does it make of me?
You gently lift the baby
slung across my chest,
take her from me,
with more tenderness for me
than our baby.
This is your way.
The other little one
curls warm under the arm
that I drape over him
like a wing stapled close
But really it is your breadth
that shelters us all. Lives.
Snow enslaves all
we walk with staves,
you look like someone
out of the Old Testament.
Your anger when it comes
is just, but still just anger.
Snow is inevitable,
wondrous in volume.
These words turn in me
cold as a key in the lock.
There’s no turning back now.
No. No taking them back.
_
Love, certain parts of me
are almost yours. Started
mine, now given to you.
For your care and time
the sway of your stare
your plea, your pledge
your touch like breath
our every pause a womb
where love is born
every breath
is so much wind-rinsed dust
every breath
begins a thought unsaid
till sweetness
turns speech in two-three tongues
till dreams
drop like calm climbing touch
on legs
galloping deep in the night
to legs
that blossom asleep in bed
_
It takes her a moment
to figure things out:
the clock didn’t stop working;
it really is 3:52 in the morning.
When’s the last time you caught
the clock staring at 3:52?
Too early. Still night,
not yet morning. Be still night.
The rattling of the house
lulls her sleep to deep;
then capriciously,
wakes her up again.
She says: fuck that.
without anger.
Tastes the calm relish
of expecting nothing.
_
Often there are strangers’ voices
speaking sounds not words
Often there are men in the house
their fists rising like voices
Nobody notices that I am gone
sleeping and eating like an animal
in the ditch curved protectively
around the house
And often, I have the power
to make them disappear
simply, stealthily putting
my palms to my eyes, my ears.
__
Rain makes
unanticipated patterns
on the windows
like broken glass.
And on the street
windshields
like cobwebby ice.
The old man inside
is laughing.
Or coughing.
__
Well, you've always been good at crushing on elderly intellectuals.
Morning’s journey through the smoke of birds,
the flat sheets of faded sky, is mine alone
but my small companions also wake early
to be fed and bundled for the day
the scent, strength, and reach of their arms
tucked into my head. We move ahead.
And though I may seem to—
No. Do forget to chart or care
about them under the stern pace
of university windows and computer screens
like differently uniformed, shutter-eyed guards,
I captain this journey too, alone. Too alone.
But the mornings, getting to there--
It might as well be that it is
her dimpled fists that grasp the wheel
his bejewelled eyes that watch the road.
their voices and breaths that map me
as I make my way. Make my way away.
_
Threads like
nerves like roads
like pathways
stars like
chinks like holes
like winks
children like
dolls like bodies
like souls
journeys like
hope like ends
like tension
Like like
click like love
like how
(About FB)
It’s different here she asserts
it’s cold in here he insists
have you eaten? (she)
I had to turn the heat on in the house today (he)
I’m going out of town this week (he)
See, I—(she)
I’m visiting my son in Cincinatti (h)
Yes, you said so this morning (s)
I like travelling (h)
I do too. (s) (I do too.)
Where is the-- (mumble)
You could look in the-- (something)
Don’t worry about it.
_
exciting
lightning
like flash
like forward
like brilliance
and burn.
torque
makes of torture
talk
like revolutions.
_
On Israel’s end, what goes on is the incessant slow work of taking the land from the Palestinians in the West Bank: the gradual strangling of the Palestinian economy, the parcelling of their land, the building of new settlements, the pressure on farmers to make them abandon their land—all supported by a Kafkaesque network of legal regulations.
And, to avoid any kind of misunderstanding, taking all this into account in no way implies an “understanding” for inexcusable terrorist acts. On the contrary, it provides the only ground from which one can condemn the terrorist attacks without hypocrisy.
At begging us to let him change the baby’s diaper:
C’mon guys, I can do it, I want to be a man!!
On hearing why I didn’t want to go to the pool:
Really? You have your period? But you’re not at all grumpy or anything.
_
Nope this is not about posting an FB profile picture of me that Li’l A took in which, what I took to be a long strand of hair was actually considerable cleavage. Nope.
It’s Baby A’s language. She needs someone better than her current giggly family to teach her that it’s just not okay to yell “TIT!”
Although to be fair, “tit” functions as a sort of suffix in her vocabulary right now.
Blantit = blanket (you can see how anyone could make this mistake.)
Naptit = napkin (it’s a bit of a listening comprehension fail here.)
Motit = monkey (and yes, it is pronounced “more tits.”)
Waltit = Walter, the protagonist of this book (how I knew she had a problem.)
__
Hey, did you know that today's the day Mahatma Gandhi was shot and assassinated?
No, but yeah. That's exactly what i needed to hear to make my day all bright and cheery.
_
My mom: Did Big A dispose of the bird?Yes.Oracle Mom: I think that means you've just rid yourself of any danger stalking Baby.I'll take it.FTW Mom: Also, remember that your first house sparrow didn't actually nest or hatch in the house. It wanted to, you chased it away, and you still had a baby.
[the] reason Obama's victory generated such enthusiasm is not only that, against all odds, it really happened: it demonstrated the possibility of such a thing happening. The same goes for all great historical ruptures--think of the fall of the Berlin Wall. Although we all knew about the rotten inefficiency of the Communist regimes, we didn't really believe that they would disintegrate--like Kissinger, we were all victims of cynical pragmatism. Obama's victory was clearly predictable for at least two weeks before the election, but it was still experienced as a surprise.
Showing eyes phosphorescent
in fear, muddied with
dread lie our
heavy heads
our throats
are thunderclouds
for fear breaks
off—
flakes. And this October
is shrill silence
as bats cringe
inches from the skin.
_
[To a killer:] If you reflected upon the face...
of the victim you slew, you would have remembered your mother in the room
full of gas. You would have freed yourself
of the bullet’s wisdom,
and changed your mind: ‘I will never find myself thus.’
[To another killer:] If you left the foetus thirty days
in its mother’s womb, things would have been different.
The occupation would be over and this suckling infant
would forget the time of the siege
and grow up a healthy child
reading at school, with one of your daughters
the ancient history of Asia.
They might even fall in love
and give birth to a daughter [she would be Jewish by birth].
What, then, have you done now?
Your daughter is now a widow
and your granddaughter an orphan.
What have you done with your scattered family?
And how have you slain three doves in one story?
Another early morning hike. The peak was approx 2500 feet above sea level, with the last couple of turns like corkscrews. I caught sight of ...