invisible mountains I exhaled
Wednesday, September 20, 2023
an unfolding
invisible mountains I exhaled
Friday, September 15, 2023
"Eventually everything happens"*
Thursday, September 14, 2023
inexhaustible
but otherwise ordinary
just like a fist
how could I trust
or to drag my silences in
Wednesday, September 13, 2023
alternate endings
where you are just a small name
on the dark seated in your mouth
Tuesday, September 05, 2023
yesterday's sunrise
frees the cynical coals flaring
in my heart
blesses the vermillion wounds
of my soul
speeds in a blessed contagion
to forgive
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Pic: Yesterday's sunrise over Mackinaw Island bay. Water and celestial bodies make me so happy! The birds on the water are geese, not swans, but the scene reminded me of Yeats's "The Wild Swans at Coole."
Saturday, September 02, 2023
summer retreat
it's my errand as the sun goes blind
some general theory of dispossession
shredding the faces of flowers
until they become a synonym of before
Pic: Max discovers the hideout of Kylo, the black squirrel who regularly taunts the puppies. There's a train behind the tree-line too.
Tuesday, August 29, 2023
at night when
Saturday, August 19, 2023
you have no idea
Friday, August 18, 2023
chances are
Wednesday, August 09, 2023
we could ride backward into memory
meeting people who were bad
for us, who ruined weekends...
Monday, August 07, 2023
how could I live so far away?
- Mom, aunt, sis, and brother-in-law are sick; At and Nu appear to be recovering. I feel so conscience-stricken about my germy kids and worried about everyone else with a side of I told you guys to mask up when we were in the car together!
- I may be developing misophonia... and also the bands of howling street dogs were... interesting the first couple of nights, but not anymore.
- Big A has already neglected my flowering plants to death. But Huckie and Max are well loved, so I'll keep him.
- Had to say goodbye to family who came up from Coimbatore and Chennai to hang out with us... I miss them already.
- Esp. VM and AA--seeing them wrap At and Nu in the same kind of unconditional love that saved me when I was a teen has been such a joy.
- It's Monday, so we've had to stop partying all night. I haven't left the house all day.
- I got so much cash on Amazon India gift cards, which I cannot use from the US, so I've ordered a ton of stuff and it remains to be seen if we'll receive it before our departure date.
- A realization that I have a very special position in the family as the oldest grandchild/nibling--it's nothing about me, any ol' baby landing into this family just waiting to love on their big sister's baby would have done. I just happened to luck out big time.
- The class I picked up as an overload due to a colleague's sudden departure was cancelled. Alleluia. I did it mostly out of a sense of duty--the extra cash would have been nice, but the extra time will be sweeter.
- I had a Zoom meeting with my editor in NZ this morning. It was a fairly routine meeting, except when they sweetly said "you get to weave the web," I was taken aback because I heard it as "you get to wave the whip." Umm, no.
Wednesday, July 19, 2023
lingering
Thursday, July 13, 2023
still, life
we're okay, we're alright
and here I go again
like an ultrasound finding life
--ghostly, quiet, yearning
so sure of myself
Wednesday, July 12, 2023
first draft
Tuesday, July 11, 2023
things I learn
How am I supposed to forget about you
...when there's garbage on every street
Things I learn from a seven-year-old:
my sister is just four, and she has only one eye
I'm the one who needs to look out for her
Things I learn from the internet:
When you're a writer you have homework every day
and then you die
Sunday, July 09, 2023
diaspora
I would not have known to cross
the hour with conversation
Pic: The pond at MSU Beal Gardens. It was such a brilliant day today. I walked three hours: half by myself; half with Big A.
Friday, July 07, 2023
crossing
where there were rocks
Pic: Ducks on the Red Cedar. Big A and I were supposed to go on a run in the morning, but it was 3:45 by the time we left and so hot I could barely run a mile. So we walked along the river instead.
Note: I can't stop thinking about the refugee boat off the Greek coast.
Thursday, July 06, 2023
going back
Saturday, July 01, 2023
(puppy-inspired) prayer (a doggerel piece) (made with Nu, in honor of Max!)
Note: Made with Nu, in honor of Max!
Pic: Max with an assortment of disemboweled, decapitated, and dismembered toys. We'd just returned from NB's graduation open house and he was so happy to be reunited.
Friday, June 30, 2023
what it means when
trees and clouds too--
Pic: Max and Huck are (to use Nu's word) "swarming" all over BL because they give the best scritches. I usually hide people's faces, but I didn't have to here!
an unfolding
I have been dreaming of people invisible mountains I exhaled into existing twisting, quickening and though short-lived as grass, are seeds...

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At had us pose for this pic up at Aunt R's place on Lake Huron so he could put it up in his dorm. "Don't tur...
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Today is the birthday of the best sister in the whole world (mine:)! Happy, Happy Birthday, Chelli! [AA, my favorite aunt in the whole world...
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Friends and old neighbors shutting it down in honor of John Crawford. _