I set up for our Zoom appointment in the same place where mom and I had taken our last photos together and showed up alone, because I didn't want anyone else's overly rational energy around. I'm not sure I could completely turn off my own rational mind either. As it was, I wondered if I was being told what I wanted to hear--that she was at peace, is always proud of me, and always loves me.
But then, she said also that my mom is worried that I haven't been as social as I used to be and why haven't I been doing the things I love--like walking by the water by myself and writing. That took me by surprise, because those last two things seemed fairly specific to me, and also true.
I took myself off on a long walk as soon as we got off the call. I was told swans would be a sign from my mother. Mom frequently mistook geese for swans, and we now have geese year-round, so I guess I'm in luck. She said nothing about Scout whose third anniversary was yesterday.
Pic: Redbuds in bloom by The Red Cedar; the floods have receded.
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I don't NOT believe in mediums. I mean, I'm sure there are a lot of shysters out there. But you know what, why not give yourself a little comfort? Why not have someone reassure you that your mom is at peace and is proud of you? We can't hear those things enough, really. And it was a gift - it would be rude not to use it! So I am here for this, and also I do think those things are pretty specific and would be kind of a stretch to apply to the general public, especially walking by the water.
I was talking to my MIL about this and she was shy to tell me that she thinks that the spirit of my late FIL comes around in bird form, and I told her I 100% support this. I think of my grandma every time I see a hummingbird. If we think that spirits live on - which I totally do - why wouldn't they inhabit another being? IT'S THE PRINCIPLE OF REINCARNATION (my MIL is a Catholic and would be shocked at the use of that word, but I believe it totally).
Maybe, since your mom mixed up swans and geese, maybe she is in the spirit of a goose? And there watching? We just don't know, I think we should take comfort in whatever form we need to.
Whoa, I haven't even had my second coffee yet and I am going OFF in your comments! I guess the tl;dr is that I support your medium session, I support signs from the universe and from your mom, and I support taking comfort from the natural world. xo
I think that would be fascinating, especially when the medium is coming at you from a totally unaware position. (I don't think I would want to go to one with my real name or local because I don't always trust people not to do research and since I live my life online, am too much of an open book.) Coming cold, I would be inclined to trust them more. Zoom make a lot of sense. I'm glad that motivated you for your walk -- a glorious day and you saw the geese, the redbuds are out and it's leafing out. Can't beat that!
I'm glad you had such an affirming experience with the medium. I feel like anything that helps you with your grief (and doesn't cause an unhealthy habit) is worthwhile.
The photo is beautiful. Redbuds here are leafing out now, but they were so lovely. And being out in Nature is helpful for almost anything.
3 years for Scout. <3 My heart. I know he is at peace, just like your mom, maybe he was being polite and didn’t want to butt in.
My cousin went to a medium after her father (my uncle) died, and they said some very specific things that gave her comfort. She also said that the more time goes by, the harder it is to contact someone, so likely I cannot try to contact my mom. I think about it sometimes, there is a medium set up right by my grocery store.
I'm glad you're writing and walking again and I hope it's healing. The redbuds are lovely.
I'm glad the medium had some insight that was personal to you. That gives her other comments more validity. I know your mom is proud of you - how couldn't she be? Don't ever doubt that!
I try pretty hard to be a skeptic, but I'm really not. Even if coincidences are just happenstance, they always feel to me like a kind little wink from the universe, and I have no problem imagining a loving energy remaining. I am glad this gave you some comfort.
Wow. I don't necessarily believe, or not believe, in mediums. I guess I'm neutral leaning towards skepticism? Those are some very specific things though! Hopefully you'll take it as a sign to start doing those things again.
My mom as a goose :). I'm here for it <3
All she had was my middle name, Jeanie. That made it feel a bit uncanny. So grateful for the greening in our parts!
I appreciate the gentle nudge not to let it become a habit, Nance :) <3 . I don't intend to re-up my experience again. But I do feel extra comfort in my walks again.
Scout wouldn't have been polite at all about coming in for a nosy hug, J. It makes me trust the whole experience less. I can imagine the temptation to try if the opportunity is right there every time you shop for food! I don't know that I could handle that.
Thanks, Steph. Clearly, not a linear progression, but I'll take what I can get!
Thank you, Lisa <3. It was comforting. The "proud of you" was another part that struck me as true.
Allison, I lean towards skepticism myself! But it's good advice, and it would make my mom (and me) happy, so here goes! XO
I meant JENNY!
It absolutely did... I'm going to take that kind little wink and loving energy!
Take care.
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