Tuesday, December 09, 2025

vanity x 2

The podiatrist took a ton of x-rays today and thinks that my toe is healing great; YAY! It looks wonky, messy, and swollen--but I guess it's what's on the inside that counts? (But it does mean I'm not cleared to wear cute shoes on my trip this weekend; boo.)

I'm so inspired by this medical visit that I think I might finally call my Primary Care for an appointment to try to figure out if we can do something about the daily nausea. I thought it was a side effect of grief, but it hasn't gone away. Not eating all day and then eating only in the evening (when the nausea abates) for the past three months has been hell for my metabolism and is really making me look rather... puffy. (I'm pretty sure I'm doing this for health reasons too and not just vanity.)

Pic: I loved this glimpse of a rainbow alongside a green-light (although not for me, I was waiting for my left-turn arrow). It's a sign, right?

14 comments:

StephLove said...

I'm glad your toe is healing well. I think it's a good idea to get the nausea checked out. Even if it is psychological in origin, they still might be able to treat it.

Pretty rainbow.

Lisa's Yarns said...

Please see your primary care doctor! Daily nausea is terrible and not something you should have to live with. They might be able to prescribe a temporary med to help w/ that symptom. I would feel so depleted if I was dealing with daily nausea as it's one of the most exhausting symptoms to handle!

Nance said...

I'm so glad you're being more open to seeing your PC. It's a Good Thing to take an active part in your health and self-care in the midst of all this. Not eating all day can lead to more serious concerns down the road, I know.

Nicole said...

Definitely check it out, Maya! Psychological symptoms are just as important, because symptoms are symptoms. I'm sure there is something they can do to help. xoxo

J said...

I think it could very well be a side effect of grief. That doesn’t mean that your PCP can’t help you. Get the help you need.

Jeanie said...

Yes, it's time to go to the PCP. Even if grief-related, it's good to know what it is and if it's something else, good to get on top of it. No one needs nausea. I'm glad the toe is healing well. I hear you on the shoes. When I had the foot brace, I had to wear sandals -- and when it got cold, wet and snowy that wasn't fun!

Anonymous said...

Vanity motivates me to do things like wear sunscreen. :)

I have been thinking of you and sending care across the miles.

Know that there is space, grace, and place for your healing process. ❤️

maya said...

Thank you, Steph. I'm such a sucker for pretty skies...

maya said...

Lisa--it's like being preggers with nothing to loo forward to HA!

maya said...

December and Summer are when my self care migrates to, Nance. I will get this take care of now.

maya said...

Thanks, Nicole; I hope so too.

maya said...

I'm sorry, I've whined about this to you before too... doing it now. XOXO

maya said...

Oh, Jeanie! I feel you! Dragging the boot through slush and then having to clean it is revolting.

maya said...

Steph :)?

The sunscreen thing made me laugh!

Thank you <3

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