UDL teaching workshop this morning--I was learning a lot, and contributing a lot. After watching the short documentary clip about kids with ADHD, I told a story about my babyhood that made the classroom go "aw" and chuckle. Except that after everyone had returned to the work at hand, I kept seeing my mom as an earnest new parent and I just... shut down and had to leave the meeting early.
(The story goes that I was not a good sleeper as an infant. I was hyperactive--and from six months onwards--very talkative. When my parents brought it up to the pediatrician, they said that it was probably because I was very brainy and constantly at work. That was so smart of the pediatrician, because it immediately mollified my parents and they never complained about my weird nocturnality again.)
Pic: Long walk-and-talk with JG in the afternoon. I inscribed two books (the Trans book and the poetry anthology) for her. I updated the annual report last night and was struck by how my scholarship, mentorship, and service for this one year would be a decent tenure-deserving record in most places. And the reason I'm having uncharacteristically braggy and uncharitable thoughts like these is because I'm so disappointed at work right now.
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You deserve to be uncharacteristically braggy -- those are marvelous, tenure-worthy accomplishments. I think you had the smartest pediatrician in the world.
After a long time (and therapy), I learned to reframe some things from my childhood: memories can be so intense and so singular that we fail to contextualize them. Parents are and always will be imperfect--learning on the job, so to speak. Humans are so complex and different; parents are raising each child for the very first time, regardless of how many have gone before.
I'm so sorry that your employer doesn't recognize your worth. Maybe you need to speak up.
I am sorry for the unhappiness, both personal and professional.
Bah, I’m sorry that work is upsetting right now!
My Maya had colic, and I saw a pediatrician who said that kids with colic often turned out to be really smart, were very sensitive. That helped to reframe a very exhausting situation for me!
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