Sunday, September 14, 2025

still present

I'm still using the present tense when I talk about mom a lot of the time, and I guess that's ok. Every time I receive a condolence message, I go through a moment where I'm like--LOL, no! my mom's not dead... before I realize no, that message really is for me. 

They say a loved one's spirit is near when a cardinal appears... I've been woken up by a cardinal almost every day since Amma died...

Could it be because when A is at work, I've been sleeping downstairs with Max and Huck?

6 comments:

Nance said...

I've heard that about cardinals (my father's favourite bird). We always say they're he.

If that's actually possible, then I want my spirit to be heralded as a big, sassy blue jay.

StephLove said...

My cousin feels the same way about cardinals, that it's her mother visiting her.

J said...

We don’t have cardinals here, but right after Mulder died I did see a red bird, which is very uncommon. I don’t think I had seen one before or since.

If Nance comes back as a blue jay I’m going to have to stop hating them.

Nicole said...

It is definitely a sign. Maybe she's telling you she's okay?
I feel that way about hummingbirds and my grandma.

Nance said...

XO

Sarah said...

I think I wrote this to you, but I have embraces the cheese of the cardinal, and now when I see them, I'm so happy

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