with witchy fingers she traces me
she doesn't say I'm here for you
she says, I'm there for her
--to eat
her hunger is growing in her
like a child, but she hates it
her rage blooms instead
like a storm
turning on me, she challenges:
just who do you think I am?
--I answer quietly to myself
"an asshole."
*
Her anger is pointed, many-pointed
like the sea. There are many things
to be angry about right now
so I understand
inside my body's cage she tests
my plumpness, then lights me
up and tells me to shine
I'm not fine
I am bad and blood soaked but only
on the inside... like her, another
woman, I try to smile, and say
goodnight
_____________________________
Note: Weirdos are all up in everyone's financial info and we have trade wars with the neighbors who sent firefighters to help with the California fires. Things are getting testy all around, and I'm trying to stay calm.
Pic: The Red Cedar River is frozen except up by the rapids; walk with Big A.
20 comments:
Oh, I love this poem so much! You're such an evocative writer, my friend. Take care of yourself. I'm trying to up here as well. Things are so ugly right now. xo
I love this poem so much too! There are so many things to do in your boat right now.
I love that I introducing Jeanie to each other! She’s been a dear friend of mine for probably 15 years I think? She’s such a dear person and has beensuch a good friend to me through the peaks and valleys of life.
Wow. I feel this one, and I think every woman out there can relate. Well done.
Beautiful, Maya! And yes, things are getting testy. We must stay calm...
Beth and I are headed to a protest at Treasury tomorrow afternoon. Thanks for the link. I was planning to find one for my blog, but I'll just use this one.
Oh, Canada. I'm so sorry, friends.
Wow - fantastic poem! "she tests / my plumpness then lights me / up and tells me to shine / I'm not fine" <--- GORGEOUS.
This poem is fierce. It reminds me too much of the stress of being the mother of an anorexic, which was (is? remission?) me.
Regarding all of the other stress, YES. I'm feeling helpless, and have not managed to do something every day, but I am improving and WILL do something every day, so thank you very much for that mantra to keep in my head. <3
Thanks, Nicole. Things are so ugly and embarrassing!!
Thank you, Lisa.
I've really enjoyed Jeanie's writing, and look forward to getting to know her more!
Thank you, Nance.
Thanks, Jenny. That's a good reminder--that's when the good work gets done!
Good luck to you and Beth, Steph! Thank you for fighting the good fight! XOXO
Right, Engie? How did it come to THIS?!
Oh, Suz! Thank you!!
ED is tough, my friend. I'm sorry this meandering reminded you of those times.
And yes, doing something towards what's causing anxiety would be good, but you're doing SO MANY other things EVERY DAY, so that's magical and good too. XOXOXOX
I had to look up chudail. Thanks for the education. I love learning things like that.
Thanks for looking it up, Steph! If Googling works (I checked) I've decided to let people do it themselves...
Gah the grammar in my comments is atrocious! :P Talk to test is only so accurate! Eeks!
Aw, hush! I'm amazed that you make the time for talking to everyone!
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