Friday, October 18, 2024

marking myself safe

It has been a tough week, but I'm still here. 

One of my besties sent me this meme to remind me that I don't have to be super nice to everyone else while I'm feeling terrible. (The small font at the bottom says, hilariously, "Hello 911? How are you?")

Big A is jokingly pretend-placing bets with the kids on whether I'll be hospitalized for exhaustion or a mental breakdown and whether it'll be by Thanksgiving or Christmas.

But I AM doing things for myself. For instance, I had meetings all day, but I made the time to make and attend a long overdue medical appointment. (My finger is still splinted and I guess the days of just expecting my body to heal over are over?)

Also, I went to book club although I didn't quite finish Niall Williams' This is Happiness. It's a delightful, charming, poetic novel set in Ireland (and I should love it for that anti-colonial attribute alone) but I guess I wasn't in the right frame of mind to enjoy it. What I did enjoy, however, was sitting with a glass of wine and my book club friends while they cursed up a storm and exchanged GOTV stories from the trenches. My multigenerational friendships with women (this book club is mostly in their seventies) are some of the greatest blessings in my life. 

Currently, I'm wondering if it's worth it to go to bed as the Saturday class is at 7 am our time. 

Pic: This picture reminds me of the time I was so tired as an undergrad, I tripped over a beanbag and then reflexively apologized to it. Good times.

6 comments:

Gillian said...

Take care

Nance said...

If you were your friend, what would you say to yourself right now?
I think it's important to ask yourself that question every now and then and listen to your own advice. XO

maya said...

<3

maya said...

Sound advice, Nance... (I think having empty time on my hands would lead to contemplating the abyss, so exhaustion and "good works" is the preferable alternative for me.)

StephLove said...

When I was in 8th grade, my mom (a single mom) was working, in grad school taking finals, and we were in the midst of a move, right before Christmas. We actually wrote the day of her scheduled nervous breakdown on the calendar. (She didn't really have one, but it would have been justifiable.)

maya said...

Steph--I'm going to keep this story forever because I know it all ends happily... Thank you for sharing this one! <3

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