Thursday, November 30, 2023

"it's that little souvenir of a terrible year/which makes my eyes feel sore"

I thought I was done collecting snow globes... 

But I was at the store getting personal hygiene products for my students' community service project and this snow globe called out to me. Scout loved Christmas... and I like how this one makes it as though Scout is getting a visit with Santa this year too.

It plays "We wish you a merry Christmas" and I never wind it up all the way, so it plays really slowly and sounds super sad. Like those songs which do double duty with an upbeat happy version and a slower sad version. "Que sera, sera" in The Man Who Knew Too Much is the only example I can think of right now... It's a really big thing in Bollywood films, something the kids love to parody with basically any song. 

Anyway...

It's the first Christmassy thing I've set out this year.

(Big A and I still tear up every day/every other day when we talk about Scout, who took so much of my heart with him. Does anyone have the timeline for when things will get better?)

Pic: Inside a snow globe with Scout and Santa. Wish I could be in there. #It'sMyBlogAndI'llBeMaudlinIfIWantTo
The title is from one of my favorite nostalgic songs from the 90s--The Sundays' "Here's Where the Story Ends." 

6 comments:

Nicole said...

Things will get better for sure, but it takes a while. I still think about Barkley every day but I don't feel sad anymore when I think of him.
I have been playing Last Christmas on the piano in a super slow dramatic way, so am I a human version of your snowglobe? Maybe!

NGS said...

The trend in horror movies right now is to have a pop song played really slowly and it makes the song creepy. Your snow globe is giving me horror movie vibes. That's all!

StephLove said...

Seems like that snow globe called to you this year.

We haven't done any decorating either. I keep thinking I'll set North on that chore because they enjoy it, but they never have time.

Nance said...

No. There is no timeline. Grief for a pet is the same as Grief for a person, and sometimes it's even worse, especially at the beginning. (And the Beginning can last years, too.)

Ah, you know all that. :-( Your snowglobe is sweet, though, and may help.

Gillian said...

Sorry for your loss.

maya said...

Thanks you, friends.

Nicole, I want to hear your version of "Last Christmas."

NGS, I'll take sad over creepy, I guess.

StephLove, I plan to do some decorating this weekend now that classes are over.

Nance, yes--I think this is something we will measure in years. <3

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