I nearly died every time the phone rang today, imagining the worst. One branch in my brain's flowchart was already making arrangements to travel to Bangalore. Simultaneously, another branch was completely certain that everything would be alright, how could the world go on without Amma?
I know the day is coming for me, for all of us, and especially people my age. Just this week, I've had friends describe parents as "actively dying" and witnessed (on Facebook) friends whose last parent died describe how it's never old to feel like an orphan. They were not ready. I know I'm not ready. I doubt anyone ever is.
Anyway, because my sister and I were constantly texting yesterday, I took some strength in thinking of ourselves as Wonder Women. Our group chat name plays with this theme--it's called "Wanda Women" since one of our family names is Wandawasi.
Pic: Top--our "Wanda Women" Profile photo; Bottom--the photo Big A took the morning they left. Nu is a bonus presence in both.
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It's so hard to see our parents (and in-laws) age, especially if we don't live close by. I think if you see someone all the time then you don't notice the aging as much, but for you - and now for me - seeing them every so often really points out the changes. It's hard. xo (I love those photos! Nu is tall!)
I hope she continues to improve. I'm with my mom now and I don't see her often so I can imagine how upsetting it would be to have her fall ill right after we separated.
Whew. I hope the news continues to be as promising. Out of the ICU is a good sign. But I know you are reeling and probably partially paralyzed. Yes, the mind in thousands of different directions at once. Holding you close to my heart from so very far away. My mom died when I was 25 (Dad years later) and yes, the orphan thing is so true. I'm hoping you and your family have many more years together. Prayers continue.
All the best.
I am glad your mom has stabilized and could potentially get out of the ICU today! I've been thinking of you! It is hard to see parents age! My mom has outlived her mom by about 6 years now which is a weird feeling, I think. I keep hoping my parents will have the health of my paternal grandparents who lived to 86 and nearly 101!! (hopefully both will live longer that the 86 years my grandpa lived, but even getting to 86 would be wonderful).
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