Sunday, May 19, 2024

dying young

Those poor rabbit babies--Nu and I could feel them trying to stay alive, but they didn't make it to the end of the day. They didn't have a nest and their mama didn't come back for them, and the place we were directed to was closed today. So although we called so many times through the day (and a few other places too), we weren't able to get those poor kits the care they needed. I will see them breathing laboriously as they died of starvation in my head for a long time. 

Death feels like trauma. Especially when it's visited on the young. I mean it wouldn't take 15,000 dead children for me to stop a war--it was already too much at one dead child. 

(I walked to the art fair with friends today and lingered over afternoon tea for hours, but these thoughts weren't far from my head.)

Pic: Judith Lowry's painting titled "Going Home." It's in the section of the Heard Museum about Indian Boarding Schools, and I've been haunted by it since I saw it last week.

7 comments:

Gillian said...

Sad.

Nicole said...

Awww poor babies. I know what you're saying, Maya, lives are so precious, everyone's life is, but children especially so.

Nance said...

I'm truly a child about Death. I cannot process it maturely. Like you, the thoughts about it linger and persist. I've been this way forever.

That illustration is haunting. Discomfiting.

StephLove said...

I'm sorry about the kits. It sounds like you did everything you could.

As for the children of Gaza (and all wars) I don't even know what to say. A lot of my charitable giving recently has been directed to Unicef and UNHCR, but that hardly seems enough.

maya said...

Sorry to be a downer, friends.

Gillian--yes.

Nicole--that part!

Nance--I feel what you're saying. I thought I'd get it as I got older, but no.

Steph--Bless you for doing all you can.

NGS said...

I was at a funeral yesterday for someone who died far too young. It is hard to go on with day to day activities sometimes when everything is traumatic. But we must brush our teeth and walk the dog and make dinner.

maya said...

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