Showing posts with label Family Tree. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Family Tree. Show all posts
Saturday, March 19, 2016
Sunday, August 30, 2015
Saturday, February 28, 2015
Monday, February 09, 2015
Tuesday, February 03, 2015
Wednesday, January 07, 2015
A Third Coast
On the brine of memory
the ink of veins marks spots
It is a storm of forgetting;
at each sob, she jettisons
Parents as they were, embraces
in sorrow how they now are
sweeps it all into feeling
grabbing and flailing even so
_
Sunday, October 26, 2014
Nostalgia and Kindness
It's true that every time I hear this song, it brings a lump to my throat.
Nu says, "That's like you, Mama. You left your mom and Dad too."
At silently thumps me on my shoulder. (Somewhat smirkily, the way he seems to do everything these days, but still kindly.)
Broods: Mother and Father
_
Sunday, May 11, 2014
Wednesday, April 16, 2014
Monday, April 14, 2014
This is a morning
Painted with the colors of my childhood
a door swings, calls my childhood name
the stairs lift me as did mother and father
the breeze, their blessing calling me home
_
Tuesday, April 01, 2014
Sunday, April 07, 2013
For Amma
Mother, my diameter
I am yours, your radius.
Gambling into leaf too early
the crocuses are betrayed
frayed on drifts of winter,
sleet, and no daisies
at our feet
Bound to you. Only you.
But found by everyone.
_
I am yours, your radius.
Gambling into leaf too early
the crocuses are betrayed
frayed on drifts of winter,
sleet, and no daisies
at our feet
All weekend long,
Toronto's lonely songs
their Omni and just me
the same Hindi movies
this time I see alone
Bound to you. Only you.
But found by everyone.
_
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
Thursday, September 20, 2012
Amma
Called Amma to find out that she'd been sick and feverish for two days.
Sick since she got home from Benares; since she bathed in the Ganges with its famed sin-eliminating waters and decomposing corpses downstream.
She said she only meant to take a token dip but ended up doing nine. She said she swallowed some of the water.
In the last month two childhood friends have told me that their mothers died--one six years ago and C did not make it back to the funeral, the other one month ago on account of which S wasn't celebrating her birthday this month. I loved these "Aunties"--I loved their food, their style, their staunch support of their daughters. I yearn for a chance to tell them this.
I wonder when I'll see my own Amma again.
The kids called Amma this morning to yell "Get well soon, Ammama."
It's only been two months since I was in India.
_
Sick since she got home from Benares; since she bathed in the Ganges with its famed sin-eliminating waters and decomposing corpses downstream.
She said she only meant to take a token dip but ended up doing nine. She said she swallowed some of the water.
In the last month two childhood friends have told me that their mothers died--one six years ago and C did not make it back to the funeral, the other one month ago on account of which S wasn't celebrating her birthday this month. I loved these "Aunties"--I loved their food, their style, their staunch support of their daughters. I yearn for a chance to tell them this.
I wonder when I'll see my own Amma again.
The kids called Amma this morning to yell "Get well soon, Ammama."
It's only been two months since I was in India.
_
Thursday, September 13, 2012
Once, twice
Your place is inside someone.
the closing of their heart
a landscape scaled to story
what if you knew everything
About why my sister looks like
my sister, the slap of silence;
the beating that is the phone ringing
The lament of memory in all
the half-remembered childhoods
what if those habits are only errands
dead from scorn; like butter asking
to be left out, sleepy in the sunlight
_
the closing of their heart
a landscape scaled to story
what if you knew everything
About why my sister looks like
my sister, the slap of silence;
the beating that is the phone ringing
The lament of memory in all
the half-remembered childhoods
what if those habits are only errands
dead from scorn; like butter asking
to be left out, sleepy in the sunlight
_
Sunday, April 08, 2012
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Spin
Yesterday, after I'd dropped the kids off at school and was driving home to work at syllabi and class prep, I ran over a squirrel. I've braked-swerved-stopped for the suicidal little creatures before and would have this time, except that this one leapt out of the undergrowth before I could harness a reaction. Serves me right. I should have biked/walked the kids. I felt the thunk of its body under the wheel and could see its inert form lying an inch or so from the edge of the road. I felt miserable.
I called my mother.
She was horrified. And suggested that to make up for taking a life, I should scatter grain in the garden for other squirrels to eat.
I'm such a bad person, that all I could think of was--but I'm not the one who eats meat!
_
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Tuesday, October 04, 2011
Back
Fair, hostile sky
grumble of wind
music wakes up,
an umbrella of rain
splinters of silence
In the cramped cage
of childhood
My mothers already
see everything
_
grumble of wind
music wakes up,
miscommunicates
splinters of silence
In the cramped cage
of childhood
My mothers already
see everything
_
Monday, October 03, 2011
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