Saturday, November 09, 2024

there is no map to the unreal

the long lines won't let go
I cannot even write
who is it that sold the world
who birthed it breaking

words turn, unlatch, and then
run away
I am run over in the middle of 
of nowhere

the journey is now a recovery
just a few steps 
forward and then I carefully
re-turn back 

I'm eclipsed in the small forevers
of amnesias
a place I have all the time I want
to not be here
_____________

 Pic: My today, basically: books, work, puppies. It's sad and hilarious how terrified Max is of the purple ball when it rolls towards him. He was scared of it when he was a puppy and it was bigger than him, and somehow scared of it still although he's much bigger than it now. Perhaps there's some lesson there for me?

12 comments:

Gillian said...

Nice

Nicole said...

Very moving poem, Maya. Oh, Max! Rexie was scared of a lot of things when he came to us, I think the younger boy he lived with was very rambunctious. If Rob brought out the tape measure, for example, Rex would try to hide under the table.

StephLove said...

That last line is certainly tempting, in various ways of reading it.

NGS said...

Who sold the world indeed. *sigh*

maya said...

Thank you!

maya said...

Thank you, Nicole...

Oh, poor, sweet Rexie!

maya said...

Ugh, I hate it that that line speaks to you, Steph...

maya said...

We need something radical, Engie--I don't see the motivation fo that yet...

Bibliomama said...

That's a beautiful poem that should never have had to be written.
The room is so beautiful, full of colour and light and warmth. I hope it's giving you some comfort. (We have the Smart Ass game too).

maya said...

Thank you, Allison! Yes, I did cocoon myself yesterday. (We should play sometime!)

Sarah said...

love the color in this pic.

maya said...

The purple ball like a giant pimple lol

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