Sunday, September 17, 2023

Why now?!

"Why now?!?" I asked BOL on our walk. Last year this time: Big A was working far away from home; Nu was in a difficult place; and I was trying to manage it all. My sadness would have made more sense then. I have to say I feel a bit blindsided and bewildered that I feel sad now. 

BOL said I was probably too busy putting out fires to let myself feel my feelings last year, and that they're coming to the fore precisely because I have some breathing room now. That immediately made so much sense to me, I told them they should be a counsellor or something. (They are a counsellor; so we laughed about that.)

Pic: Baker Woods with BSL this afternoon.

7 comments:

Nicole said...

BOL is right. Sometimes when you are in the thick of it you just keep going, and then when things relax a little, you can feel what it is you're feeling. Hugs to you, Maya. xoxoxo

Gillian said...

Nice picture.

NGS said...

Sometimes things hit you when they hit you. Give yourself all the grace you need.

StephLove said...

That makes a lot of sense.

Mom of Children said...

That makes a lot of sense… I am often on autopilot but once I sit and have that space to think and start processing I often feel all the emotions.

maya said...

💗 to you all!

Sarah said...

This happens to me, too! Or, sometimes, Ben and I wil be on different feel-our-feelings timelines, and when they don't match up it takes us a hot second to figure out what's happening.

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